Fingertips brushing my phone.
Searching and surfing, posting and lurking
Unfilling the crazy, erasing the madness;
Something’s digging deep, deep into my bone.
Check again; repeat. Am I sure?
That’s my picture in all kinds of hue.
Sketching my madness, spreading the virus
Come on; does it matter if there’s a cure?
Liking old photograph, I’m a ball of shame.
Testing waters, crossing the line
Fine, tweaking the odds, give up
Do I exist, do I not? Let’s play the game!
Following trends, adding hashtags, forget.
How? Making love or having sex?
Kissing lips, breaking hearts, loathing self
Break and repeat, love equals threat.
Closed eyes and chugging beer
Drunk texts. Delete. Laughing at self.
Me? I’m fine. Where are the damn pills?
Let’s pack it up, he said he is clear.
Swallow my pride. Doing what I feared.
Don’t spare a drop. Drown it all.
Talk. Breathe. Learn. Move on.
But, wait! I, I have already disappeared.